I felt a sense of peace being back home in Boulder after my awesome visit to Asheville. My heart felt enriched and satisfied. Waking up in my comfy bed that first day back I felt a renewed sense of purpose and enthusiasm, ready to start this new chapter, this new decade. As I descended the … More Following My Courageous Heart – Part Two
On inauguration day we watched as the 45th president of the United States was being sworn in. Many of us cried, experiencing deep despair, disbelief, fear, anger and yes, grief. We may have been thinking, (and still thinking) “can this really be happening”? Are we living in an alternate or parallel universe? What are we … More The Ride of Our Lives: Parallels Between Grief and Political Change
If you are anything like me and many others I have spoken with, you may be feeling shell shocked and full of grief among a myriad of other emotions after our gut wrenching election results. You may have been holding on to a vision or hopes attached to another outcome. I feel like I am … More Acceptance in the Face of Fear and World Change
Photo by: Bill Clark I have been lingering in some substantial resistance to recounting the story of what happened to my husband Claude. How did such a vibrant man who loved life, seemingly had it all and actually feared death to the core of his being arrive at such a desperate place that he felt suicide … More Claude’s Path To Suicide
Words have been circulating in my mind for the past couple of days, pleading with me to sit down and write. I have felt resistant for fear of how these words would be received and knowing that this post is deviating a bit from my established theme of sharing my story and grief support. But … More Reflections: We Are All One
With Independence Day upon us, it feels appropriate to crack the hatch wide open. Giving myself permission and the freedom to start revealing my thoughts and feelings as a suicide survivor and beginning to tell a more detailed account of my story relating to Claude’s death. I see this taking place over several blog posts; … More Claude’s Suicide: Freedom To Speak My Truth
No matter how you slice it, saying goodbye is never easy. It’s painful! We have many situations in our lives that require us to say goodbye to what has been familiar and most important to us. It can be a final goodbye as with death or at times it is just a change in the … More Saying Goodbye
I am reflecting back on this month of May as it draws to a close. There are changes that on the surface feel challenging, yet going deeper can be experienced as exciting for the potential they hold. Typically change can bring with it resistance in our human experience. Change can trigger fear of the unknown. … More Trusting Change
While we are caught in the perpetual waves of grief we are called to go deep, to determine what we are made of. In the process, learning who we are as a spirit or soul and why we are here. Always holding in our consciousness that we are much more than this personality self. Much … More Enchanted by the Past: Caught In The Perpetual Waves Of Grief
I would like to honor my mom’s memory today. It has been eight years since she passed away beautifully and on her own terms in hospice care at the age of 83. I was blessed to be by her side when her spirit peacefully left her body. I can say with certainty that it was … More Missing Mom on Mother’s Day