I have been working on my memoir over the past few months, writing about my experiences since my husband Claude died by suicide over five years ago. On the surface as I have faced this unimaginable loss it might appear that feeling any sense of gratitude would be elusive or unattainable. However, as I review … More Grief And Gratitude This Thanksgiving
As we approach the end of October the season is ripe for honoring our beloved ones who have passed with traditions such as the Mexican holiday Day of the Dead being just one of the many. Ultimately we can choose to honor or celebrate our loved ones’ memories in any number of ways that feel … More Honoring Our Beloveds While We Grieve
I am feeling grateful and renewed after spending a week in Southern CA. I went there to spend some quiet time by the sea with one of my beloved soul sisters and her family, and to reclaim my connection to the Pacific coast.I had forgotten how blissful it is to walk barefoot on the beach … More Lifelines: Keeping Us Afloat As We Grieve
This week has been a challenge for me. Grief has revealed itself within the perfectly positioned bookends of my wedding anniversary last Sunday and Father’s Day this Sunday. With this one-two punch it’s hard to avoid the emotional triggers of these two significant days. The pain of not only my father’s absence but Claude’s too on … More On Father’s Day: Wielding the Power Of Gratitude As I Grieve
I was reminded the other day during a conversation with a friend that today June 11th is my wedding anniversary. In the moment I thought it was odd that I had completely forgotten and that I honestly felt nothing. I remember thinking I would just let the day pass without any acknowledgement whatsoever. However, during … More Love: Still Something To Celebrate Even After We Lose Our Beloved
Being born in May could be why I relish the spirit of springtime. Everything is re-awakening with vibrant potentiality. Yet this birthday in particular, I am saddened that Claude is not by my side to usher me across the threshold of the BIG 60! On my 40th he cleverly hosted a surprise party at our … More My 60th Birthday: Following My Courageous Heart – Part One
I am remembering with such sweetness, my wedding day with Claude. Yesterday would have been our 21st wedding anniversary. That day was infused with anticipation, stunning clear blues skies on the coast of Northern CA, the sound of the crashing ocean waves below us as we said our wedding vows surrounded by an intimate group of family and … More Sweet Memories Of Our Wedding Day