I was reminded the other day during a conversation with a friend that today June 11th is my wedding anniversary. In the moment I thought it was odd that I had completely forgotten and that I honestly felt nothing. I remember thinking I would just let the day pass without any acknowledgement whatsoever. However, during … More Love: Still Something To Celebrate Even After We Lose Our Beloved
I felt a sense of peace being back home in Boulder after my awesome visit to Asheville. My heart felt enriched and satisfied. Waking up in my comfy bed that first day back I felt a renewed sense of purpose and enthusiasm, ready to start this new chapter, this new decade. As I descended the … More Following My Courageous Heart – Part Two
Being born in May could be why I relish the spirit of springtime. Everything is re-awakening with vibrant potentiality. Yet this birthday in particular, I am saddened that Claude is not by my side to usher me across the threshold of the BIG 60! On my 40th he cleverly hosted a surprise party at our … More My 60th Birthday: Following My Courageous Heart – Part One
It’s hard to believe it has been five years since that fateful day when my husband Claude made the decision to take his life. This may sound strange but I am truly grateful for all that has transpired since his death. That’s right, the good the bad and the ugly, every last bit of it. … More The Power Of Choice On Our Path Through Grief
The subject of how long it takes to move through our grief has come up a lot lately in conversations with friends and family. When Claude first died I had no idea that almost five years later my heart would still ache at times so profoundly. The consensus seems to be from those who have … More Grief Is Like The Moon
In a perfect world, getting this post out sooner would have been my preference but I have been kicking back, laying low, and taking care of myself over the past several weeks since the election. It feels like a much needed respite from the craziness out there in the world. In addition to digesting the … More How We Can Traverse Our Unavoidable Grief During The Holiday Season
Are you as intrigued as I am by life’s synchronicities and how our divine or higher selves find ways to communicate with us? My son Noah and I have been talking over the past few days about breathing and how we tend to hold our breath, especially while we are in high stress mode. Sure, … More Breathing Through Grief
Photo by: Bill Clark I have been lingering in some substantial resistance to recounting the story of what happened to my husband Claude. How did such a vibrant man who loved life, seemingly had it all and actually feared death to the core of his being arrive at such a desperate place that he felt suicide … More Claude’s Path To Suicide
Why anger? Is suicide seen as the ultimate form of betrayal? Is it that on the surface it appears that those who committed the act had a choice? I read a blog a few weeks ago in which the blogger’s condemnation of Robins William’s suicide was pretty apparent. My sense is that he is not … More The Intimate Link Between Anger and Suicide
With Independence Day upon us, it feels appropriate to crack the hatch wide open. Giving myself permission and the freedom to start revealing my thoughts and feelings as a suicide survivor and beginning to tell a more detailed account of my story relating to Claude’s death. I see this taking place over several blog posts; … More Claude’s Suicide: Freedom To Speak My Truth